It is hard to remember a time when I was not struggling with depression and anxiety.
It became so severe that were times I felt like a burden on my friends and family and thought maybe they would be better off without me. As those thoughts began coming more frequently, and became more intense, I felt exhausted, scared, and open to committing to a new anti-depressant treatment regimen… I had to save myself!
Big Fungi, Not Big Pharma
I cannot recall exactly when I “hypothetically” started micro-dosing with psilocybin, the hallucinogenic component of magic mushrooms, but the experience has been profound. In the past, I have had incredible experiences with macro-dosing psilocybin, but this is different. A macro-dose for someone familiar with psychedelics is 3.5 to 5 grams of psilocybin containing mushrooms, while a micro-dose is just 0.1 to 0.3 grams. Macro-dosing about once a month or so is how I reconnect myself with the universe and reset myself physically, mentally, spiritually, and emotionally. A macro-dose for someone with little to no psychedelic experience would be 1.5 grams.
There are different methods of micro-dosing with psilocybin. First, I hypothetically tried the “one day on, two days off” method that seemed to be the most popular, but I was not feeling enough relief. Next, I hypothetically tried Paul Stamets method of micro-dosing five days in a row, followed by a restorative break of two days. During the first five days I noticed I had more energy, slightly more clarity in my thoughts, and suffered far fewer depressive episodes. But then came the first restorative break. It was rough. I was majorly depressed and crying again. Is it Monday yet? Can I take my next dose?
To my surprise the next restorative break five days later was less rough. And the one after that even better. It has been about seven hypothetical weeks now and I feel incredible, even on the “off days.” On a scale 1 to 10, I would rate my depression now at a one or two, where it used to be a 20! I am no longer experiencing suicidal depression and my heart breaks for anyone who is currently struggling. I am happier than I have been in years!
The Magic in the Mushrooms
Psilocybin stimulates neurological receptors and improves our brain’s chemistry naturally. Micro-dosing tells areas of our brain that are not accustomed to communicating to connect. This dampens our Default Mode Network (DMN), the part of our brain, where conceptualizing the future, reminiscing about the past, daydreaming, and self-reflection happen. Staying in this mental space might seem harmless, but leads to feelings of fear, regret, sadness, frustration, anger, and desperation.
Psilocybin shares a similar structure to and mimics serotonin, stimulating the 5-HT2A serotonin receptors in the prefrontal cortex of the brain. A balance in serotonin helps balance and reduce the severity of mood disorders, depression, anxiety, ADD/ADHD, PTSD, and addiction. When serotonin levels are normal, we feel happier, calmer, increased productivity, more focused, less anxious, improved athletic coordination, balanced energy, improved relationships, enhanced ability to empathize, more emotional stability, and increased creativity.
Magic mushrooms grow commonly in the wild from forests to cow pastures. Anyone planning on trying them, should seek personal guidance from someone with psychedelic experience – start low and go slow and (on a day when they have nothing important to do).
Certain strains of mushrooms, like Albino Penis Envy and Enigma can cause anxiety, even taken as a micro-dose. Most people new to psychedelics are advised to have someone nearby who is aware of what they are doing and prepared to help. Keep in mind psilocybin is still listed as a schedule one substance and is still federally illegal (remember this is all hypothetical).
My hope, with every bit of my soul, is to give anyone struggling with depression hope. Eating just 0.1g of psilocybin mushrooms a day for five days can hypothetically change everything.